i am miserable.
and i dare say that is an understatement.
everthing in my life is wrong right now.
i feel ostracised, targeted, shot down and fucked up.
to you:
one moment you're good to me, and just when i think things are gonna start changing, you treat me badly. i hope one day you'll have a bitter taste of what i'm going through right now.

to both of you:
STOP LEAVING ME OUT. IT'S NOT FUNNY, AND YOU MAY THINK I'M BEING OVERSENSTIVE BUT HOW THE HELL WOULD YOU FEEL BEING LEFT OUT FOR SO LONG. when i'm lonely my penknife seems to beg for me to join it in painkilling matrimony.

to all of you:
thanks for being my "friends". i hope you slip on a banana peel and fall on your head, leading you to have a painful seizure and possibly some brain damage.

to you guys:
thanks for cheering me up by passing me messy blue inked notes in class, risking getting caught by Mr S. you guys really helped when i was crying my lungs out. i love you people. (:


she never was and never will be
she bleeds but no one sees.
fake a laugh, fake a smile
blood will make it worth her while.
ostracise her, stab her back
blood makes up for tears she lacks.
steal paradise, suffocate her soul
bleed her shadows, kiss the cold.
she sucks on lithium, innocence lost
she locks her heart at such a cost.
turn off the lights,she'll sharpen her blade
tear her flesh, his price she paid.

written by me.
the first line is from everybody's fool by evanescence. i got the cd! thank you sean.
that first line really inspired me to write my feelings out in the form of poetry. This isn't my best work, but at least it's better than nothing.

MISERY HAS BECOME MY COMPANY.