happy new year everyone!
yes this is my new year's post.
2006 has been a very stressful year for me. i had very little happiness, and i wasn't myself in school. i cried almost every day, and broke down in front of a mirror a couple of times.

well this year, that's not going to be me. I'm going to be as dramatic as i was in 2005, i'm going to be as loud as before, and i'm gonna SCREAM whenever i feel like it.

people may call me ah lian, goth, emo, weird (those who said those, you know who you are.) well guess what? LA-DEE-FREAKING-DAH cos i don't care anymore.

i think 2006 was really a year with so much trials and tribulations, and i definitely do NOT want that class back. sure, there were fun times. but there were so many bad times that the fun times are just non existent.

this year, i'm going to

1.improve my chinese.
2.give more hugs to people who deserve them.
3.give more love to people who deserve them.
4.be better to my family.
5.let God be my steering wheel, not my spare tyre.
6.NOT fall for anyone.
7.be nice to people whom i absolutely hate with all my heart. (you know who you are, asshole.)
8.stop calling people whom i hate 'asshole'.
9.stop using 'fuck' whenever i feel like it.
10.stop smiling whenever i see my blood.
11.make new friends.
12.be more generous.
13.grow my hair so long that i have trouble pissing.

that's the list so far.
in 2006, part of my year-long depression was my mom. i lost almost every single shred of respect i had for her.i know it's wrong to dislike my mom so much but she obviously favours my brother.i can't stand it.

i almost hate her now.

anyway i'm gonna wrap up my new year post now. i hope everyone has a great year!

XOXO,
cara.